Last April I made a blog post about inspiration. I meant every word of it but I couldn’t listen to myself. Couldn’t? Wouldn’t? Shit, I don’t know. I could speak it but couldn’t hear it.

I’ve been quite busy with client work and I’m so thankful for that. Honestly though, I haven’t given two shits about photography for over a year now. I didn’t care about cameras. Lights. Pictures. The industry. Blogs. Other photographers. Myself. Portraits. Street. Art. That little winter depression stuff I deal with settled in and set up shop.

A few months ago I was seriously thinking about closing the doors, or rather, just handing over the keys to my son, Caleb, and just walk away from it. F*ck it. Bye Felicia.


Thank God for my friends, yoga, and wine.

Breathe Zack. Just shut the hell up and breathe.

Why can’t we give ourselves the grace we extend to those around us?

Then I saw this…


Thank God for David Bowie.

That took me back to that great Chuck Close quote that I mentioned last year on this blog.

“The advice I like to give young artists, or really anybody who’ll listen to me, is not to wait around for inspiration. Inspiration is for amateurs; the rest of us just show up and get to work. If you wait around for the clouds to part and a bolt of lightning to strike you in the brain, you are not going to make an awful lot of work.

All the best ideas come out of the process; they come out of the work itself. Things occur to you. If you’re sitting around trying to dream up a great art idea, you can sit there a long time before anything happens. But if you just get to work, something will occur to you and something else will occur to you and something else that you reject will push you in another direction. Inspiration is absolutely unnecessary and somehow deceptive. You feel like you need this great idea before you can get down to work, and I find that’s almost never the case.”


The rest of us just show up and get to work.


All the best ideas come from the process; they come from the work itself.


Inspiration is absolutely unnecessary and somehow deceptive.




So I put a call out for subjects in the Atlanta area to immediately start shooting. I’m getting to work. Fuck all this sitting around being a depressive fuck. Get off your ass. Get to work.

That’s Paige. She replied on IG and we set up a shoot. That’s what I’ve looked like for far too long.



So here’s the plan for the next little bit y’all. I can’t review cameras or talk about lighting scenarios or any of that until I get myself restarted. What I can do is share some of what I’m doing along the way. All that other stuff will return at some point. When? Some point. When? Whenever I’m a healthier person.

Let’s recap. I’ve been a depressive shit for over a year and was ready to toss in the towel. Thanks to my friends Stacy, Kevin, Dan, David Bowie, Chuck Close, and my son, Caleb, I’ve had my hand held through the process and then began to feel the gentle kicks to my ass to get up, shake it off, and learn to walk again.

I’m a photographer who works with people. I have zero interest in still life, architecture, nature, etc. I need people to help me make what I want to make. I put a call out on social media for people in Atlanta. I’ve had 60 people and counting reply. I started compiling a master casting list. It looks like this.


I quickly found how difficult of a task this is going to be. I was talking to folks via multiple platforms and trying to get everyone to just text me. After twenty text strings I was getting overwhelmed. Dan the man created an online form that everyone can fill out, upload a headshot or selfie, tell me their sizes for wardrobe, when they are most likely available, etc, etc. I’m now in the process of sending this to folks interested in a shoot.

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I have an ambiguous name for this project that’s basically two words. ________ & ________ The photos I shoot have to match one of those two words. I am NOT shooting headshots. I’m NOT shooting promos. I’m NOT acting like these are client shoots. I’m NOT shooting on white seamless. That’s all stuff I do anyway. I’m am, like Bowie says, getting to the place where my feet aren’t touching the bottom. I need to head into deeper waters. Headshots and white seamless sure as hell aren’t going to get me there.

I actually hate calling this a project. I don’t know what the hell it is. It’s just me getting the f*ck to work.

There will be photos that I shoot that the subject might not like of themselves. It sure as hell won’t be something they put on their LinkedIn profile. For some of my ideas I’m simply casting people into a role that I think they can fill.

#NerdTalk – I’m shooting all of this on the new PhaseOne XF camera and the 100MP IQ3 back. Capture Integration worked out a trade in deal and I said, “Screw it. Yeah. I want that big ass ridiculous camera.” Yes. It is all sorts of unbelievable. I have never experienced a digital camera like this thing. I’ll get to that later. When? L8R.

I know many many many of you have asked about my X-Pro2 review. That’s coming too. At some point. Please don’t ask when. At some point. In the future. Here’s the basic review… The X-Pro2 is my number one most favorite interchangeable lens camera I’ve ever owned in the mirrorless to DSLR range. Ten thumbs up on that camera. But. That’s it. I’m not saying anything else for now. Also, I haven’t laid eyes on an X-T2. So… I have no idea. I hear it’s awesome. No reason to think it wouldn’t be.

I will post photos and some stories or something technical about what I’m shooting now. Comments will be disabled for those posts because I need to just do work, show work, and keep moving without going into a lot of back and forth about it. I have to get up, dust myself off, and find my stride again. If I don’t find my stride I’ll just be spewing noise into the world and God knows we sure as hell don’t need anymore noise in the world.

To signal!

I hope all of you are doing well. Let’s all get the f*ck to work for a bit shall we?



Zack Arias

A full time commercial and editorial photographer, Zack shoots everything from bands to CEOs to ad campaigns. A gifted teacher and communicator, he has an uncanny ability to meet and connect with all types of people.

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  1. Clint Davis

    Ohhhh yes, that first photo.. Colorful, yet flat, serene, yet tense. Stay hungry Zack, you’re a huge inspiration.

    • Clint Davis

      aaaaaaaaaand I just read the Chuck Close quote, and feel like a goober

      • Zack Arias

        You should feel like a goober, Clint. 😛

        Hope you are well!


  2. Shannon M Herren

    Glad to hear you’re on the upswing. Sometimes it’s easier to act your way into feeling than to feel your way into action. Keep at it. You’re one of the good guys and are appreciated by many. Blessings on you!

  3. Stephen Vosloo

    I haven’t shot anything for a year… thank you for your honesty in sharing your journey, it helps to hear we’re not alone sometimes. We’re selling our house and moving into a van to travel for a year or two. Maybe that will wake me the f**ck up! Keep the updates coming you’ve been a great inspiration!

  4. Vic Román

    Awesome seeing getting back to work!

  5. Ryan

    Dude it has been the last 3 years for me. (Add ADHD, Dyslexia and a alphabet soup of other initials they summarize me.) February I started a bad word, medication. It is helping…I think.

    The one thing I have to do…work.

    The one thing I have been told not to do…work. Oh make that two. Talk about “it”.

    I have always admired and respected you. You have given me the inspirational kick in the ass, mentorship and advice I need. (Or can mold and talilor to me.)

    No your not Jesus our savour, you a human dude willing to put his shit on the line, be real and be the kind of dude to have a shot of tequilla with. (Sorry I cannot imagine Creative Live teachers, er photographers, doing that.)

    All this is said to say one thing.


    Remember one cheek at a time and together we can kick some ass.

    Mad respect brother,


    • simon

      I don’t mean to intrude, but speach therapist can help alot woth dyslexia, ADHD, and other communication short coming.

      I strongly suggest you go see one.

      Source: living with one!

  6. Ryan

    Chin up fella and enjoy it. It’s so rare to be able to do something that you love and get paid for it.

    I was at a low point in my life a few years ago and you genuinely inspired me to get off of my arse and take up photography. I love it and I thank you. Don’t give up such a rare talent. Me and people like me need you.

  7. Dave Riedel

    Thanks Zack. Especially for the Bowie stuff. Wish I was near Atlanta. Would love to participate if I fit your needs.

  8. Brian

    Zack, thank you.

  9. Andrew Bradley

    So I don’t live in ATL, I’m in St. Pete FL but I will drive up there or fly up there to shoot with you. is it too late to try to get in on this!?!?

    • Zack Arias

      I’m specifically looking for people who will let me shoot at their place or has access to something different than my normal haunts. Trying to avoid shooting in my studio for this work as much as humanly possible.


      • Mamen

        I will allow you to shoot at my place… can we join?

  10. Paul Parkinson

    Hallelujah. TFFT! Welcome back!

  11. Neil Ta

    Dear Zack,

    I just came here to say that the times I’ve had the privilege of spending some time with you at GPP have eye opening for me in so many ways. Your ‘realness’ and blue collar work ethic was something I always admired about you and its been a real source of inspiration to me. Time for me to get the fcuk to work too.


  12. Andrew

    I’ve been feeling the same way, since day one of 2016. Glad you found the kick you were looking for. I’ll find mine eventually.

  13. Dade Freeman

    Zack’s back! Good to hear you are alive and kicking. Dark passengers can be a bugger to shake off.

    Sometimes we just need time away. To think, develop, re-assess and, if we are really drawn to what we left behind, we will find it again, but with a new invigoration.

    Glad you found yours 😉

  14. Jeff Wade

    Zack, GREAT to hear from you! I’m sure many of us will relate to your human-ness. It’s what makes your posts and your books and your in-person sessions *REAL*. No matter what comes out…. there’s solid takeaway for each person. No made-up marketing crap.
    …No noise!

    Thanks for being YOU, Zack! 🙂
    Someday when I get up to Atlanta, I hope you’re in town – I’d love to buy you and yours a craft beer (or whatever) if you have a bit of time to unwind.

  15. Kurt

    So glad you are back. You have been a big inspiration to me over the years. Looking forward to seeing this new project of yours.
    Thank you!

  16. Adam Favre

    Yeah. Ty for the update. Eyes peeled. Glad you are still kicking.

  17. Dave Jones

    Great to see you getting on your feet Zack, also great to see Caleb doing so well. If I could afford to get you a flight to the UK pal, I would so I could be a part of your work. Been shooting client work full time for 17 years myself, I truly understand the desire to walk away from the camera. Stay with it Zack, you have so much creativity and knowledge that you would go nuts without an outlet. Hope Meg is well, look after each other and take care pal X

  18. Diego

    I was just wondering yesterday what ever happened to Zack Arias. Glad to see you are back :-).

    I’m stealing your idea to start a small ____ & ____. Thanks for the inspiration to get the fck to work, I definitely relate.

  19. Brett Patching

    So good to hear from you Zack. With the way that you’re casting, I think it’s going to be a great process with all the experiments you will make – especially if you give yourself permission to f*ck up.

    I’m slowly recovering from a severe depression, and I still feel bad every day. But I can do more things as time passes, and feel some sort of momentum. Might I suggest that you don’t overcomplicate things. This should give you energy, not take it away.

  20. Iain

    Good to hear from you brother. Much love. X.

  21. Mark Loader

    Attaboy! Up & at ’em! Take 2 helpings of Signal with a copy of “The Grey Ghost” & call me in the morning…
    Best wishes, Dr Oz from Oz 🙂

  22. Gary

    Glad to have you back, Zack! I still read your older posts especially when I need “that little kick in the butt” to get to work, but now this post really “bulldoze my butt straight to the work”! I’m making music and photography tutorials on Youtube now and hopefully this will become something more than just a short term project. Wishing you and your family all the best Zack!

    Oh and you might want to check out a vid about procrastination by Tim Urban at TED on Youtube, it also kicked my butt intensely!

  23. Don

    I takes a lot of guts to get back up. Good for you.

  24. David Burke

    Fuckin A bro! Good to see you breathing again!

  25. Andrew Hensley

    Fun to see you take your infatuation of the clamp light to a whole ‘nuther level using the new crazy cam. Hope I’m saying a good thing when I say I almost see a small splash of Crewdson in the Paige image. Just keep going man. That’s what you’ve always told us. Keep posting, disabling comments and f&$k all the rest. On your mark, get set … live that way .. live that way.

  26. Heikki Takala

    You know. I had a similar situation in a diffrent, albeit creative field.

    I Noticed, that whenever I started calling whatever I was doing at that time “work”, I lost interest to it.

    Now I just do stuff. A lot of stuff.

  27. Mang

    >Inspiration is for amateurs< Hmm.. Now i need to wake up!

  28. Paul Hodgson

    Great to see you posting again Zack. Missed your personality, your truth and we’ll, just you in general though I don’t know you in person.

    We all fall on hard times and during that period it’s like swimming on molasses and uphill. It’s genuinely great to read that you’re trying and hopefully succeeding in getting out of it.

    I wish you every success Zack.

  29. Jonathan Thompson

    Get the f**k to work is right. Been telling myself that same thing as my progress has stalled and some bull sh1t resistance in my head envelopes me with a blanket of numbness.
    As I’m figuring my sh1t out, AGAIN, it’s interesting the folks who stand out from the muted normality of nonsense. Those who’s words you need to hear, who’s boot needs to connect with my backside. You have actually been one of those Zack, and although you’ve not known it, you’ve been a great help, even if it’s in the form of showing me, that you understand the limiting bull sh1t beliefs I’m telling myself. I thank you for it. I celebrate you clearing a small part of that foggy windshield, peering through and being curious enough to head towards what’s out there, even if you simply take the truck out of park and into drive.
    So if you ever feel the need to reach out to a total stranger who may get some of this crap, who’s also pushing to just get the f**k to work, email, phone Skype or if you happen to mysteriously find yourself in the UK, drop by, knock the door, we’ll talk sh1t out and see where to go next.

    Thanks for your honesty and awesomeness.


  30. Andrew Feller

    Zack, too many times I’ve thought about “getting a job” this last year.

    I was in a depressing spiral at the start of this year and went to a “creative community meet up” thing in town with a friend and the presenter, a amazing graphic designer who’s name escapes me, gave the best advice I’ve gotten in a while. For him all jobs need need to meet 2 of 3 criteria: Good People, Good Work, Good Money. If the people are good and work/project is good (creative freedom) but the money sucks it he’ll still take it because it will be fulfilling to him as an artist. If the money is amazing but the people suck and the project is crap then he passes because while the money is nice the drain on his soul, time, energy, passion, w/e is too much and usually kills momentum to look for the next project. But if money is good, people are good but project sucks than at least he has people there to support each other to get through it an make it a good time. In 2015 I was making a huge amount of progress but just wasn’t “feeling’ it”… realized I was doing a lot of work I didn’t want to be doing with people I didn’t like, or work I wanted to be doing with people I didn’t like for little to no compensation. After a bumpy start 2016 has been much better, hustling and happy.

    If you find your way near Wisconsin and want to yoga I’d love to show you around. Yoga changed my life, glad to hear you’re still with it.

    • Jin

      I’m not Zack but this rule of thumb is helpful for me. Thanks!

  31. Matt

    Hi Zack.

    Good to hear from you. The first shot is really awesome. And better yet is to hear that you are getting back on your feet.

    You have been missed out here in the sea of noise.

    Good luck

  32. Marco Venturini Autieri

    Greeting from an Italian fan of yours in Italy.
    Been waiting for a new post from you, I was worried.
    All artists struggle, but artists who also have to make a living out of their skills struggle more if they possess a certain sensibility that does not reconcile the two aspects.
    Once I saw a video of yours entering a guy’s home and taking his portrait, black and white, on white background. I liked it a lot, honestly more than the pics you show on this page. So… always white background, if you ask me (I know you didn’t). 😉

  33. Franco

    I learned that is quite impossible not to go insane sometimes when you have a curious soul. When we hit walls inside us, is just our soul getting curious about what life is all about. We will never figure things out, we’ll just bang our heads against our walls, learn about bricks and stones and bruises, until the day we fly the flight of birds with our ancestors. Keep knocking those walls, but learn to love them. Thanks Zack.

    • Rachel

      You are awesome Franco

  34. james

    A little under 2 years ago I realized I didn’t love photography anymore, at the same time I had a job opportunity dropped in my lap that was not photography related and offered all the things we don’t really get as photographers (you know 401k, paid vacation, sick time profit sharing….)

    Since then I’ve only done 1 paid job and a bunch of unpaid work where I could do what I want! (WOW having creative freedom who would have thought!!) and I love photography again, but I no longer need to be (waste time) watching all my favorite photographers and following all the Facebook pages (cough cough….noise anyone??) because who the hell really cares!!

    Last summer I also started a project that I’ve always wanted to do of creating a “bucket-list” of people I want to photograph that have influenced my life. The list ranges from friends and family to teachers, writers, guitarists/musicians, and one photographer who will go nameless 🙂 But I’ve started with people that are a little more local to me. (at least starting in the north east)

    OK no more babbling, All this was basically just to say it really suck when you learn to hate something you love…..but it’s amazing when you get the love back!!

  35. Pomelo

    I do envy you, Zach. 2015 has also been a c..p of a year to me. But while you have listened to the proper signs to get back on the road, I’ve become an alpaca named Pomelo. Now, as an alpaca, selling my fiber and teaching how to knit it is everything that is left for me. No possible salvation ahead. That’s why I’m so glad to see you’re back con the saddle again.
    Big hugs from Spain!

  36. Stevo

    Testify, Brother.

  37. Katie

    I am so effing glad you’re back! I too have been in a bit of a personal funk the last year and it’s been rough trying to get back in the swing of things and to get excited about what I’m doing. It’s so refreshing to know that I’m not the only one slogging it out everyday. Just keep swimming!

  38. Dino Zarafonitis

    “It had long since come to my attention that people of accomplishment rarely sat back and let things happen to them. They went out and happened to things.” – Leonardo da Vinci

  39. Ed

    man… you keep doing this to me. THANK YOU!!! I seriously doubt I would still be in this game (or any game) if it wasn’t for your book and your blogs.. keep being so real and sending the message with lots of signal.

  40. Candice Utigard

    Glad to hear you’re on the mend Zack. Everything you’ve said here is my life. You’re not alone and it helps me to see I’m not either. I look forward to seeing all the random personal work that pops into your head 🙂

  41. Mirko

    Living in Chile… I think I’ll miss the shooting, but it’s great to read you once again! Can’t wait to keep seeing your images!

  42. Tercio

    Great to hear from you and so glad you are back.

  43. John Haugaard

    Zack – So nice to see your new work. Hope to see you around Decatur soon.

  44. Rick Phillips

    Agreed! My favourite quote…

    “The person who is waiting for something to turn up might start with their shirt sleeves.”
    — Garth Henrichs

  45. Sean Mc

    Excellent post Zack.
    Even when I’m getting paid, I try to get stuff for me. I did do a really long project on beards that was entirely on beards. Good fun and extended my social circle.

  46. Fury

    I wondered out loud when you’d be coming back on the photographic radar just the other day as we were packing up and getting ready for our upcoming move to Atlanta. Then I heard about your model call. And now this post. I’m excited to see more. Happy to hear you’ve decided to get the f*ck back to work.

    We all have to decide that from time-to-time…

    Peace & Light,

  47. Eric

    Good to have you back. You can only take so much McNally.

  48. Gabe Havel-Sturdevant

    Damn it. Got really dusty in here all of a sudden.

    Hey Zack, I finally had to retire that Vivitar 285.

  49. Ian McCausland

    You’ll probably never read this cuz yet doing work but thank you. After 27 yrs in the biz I am in the exact same place. Knowing I’m not alone in this makes all the difference

  50. simon

    I knew you’d come back, and thanks for sharing your process with us!

    I’d like to add a simple word of encouragement.

    I always felt like you didn’t write anything here since you thought it wasn’t meaningful or worth sharing (that whole signal over noise mantra).

    What you (seem) to have failed to see is that YOU might see those irrelevant post ideas as unworthy of the signal, but we don’t.

    If you have the same approach as your photography (Get the f*ck to work!) on this blog, it’ll always be signal and not noise.

    Glad to have you back!

  51. Fabio

    Glad you’re back !
    I missed you

    Milan, Italy

  52. Pedro Portela

    Some good lessons to learn here. I think most of us feel like s*** from time to time, but that’s what really tells professionals from amateurs – pros have to bring food to the table, so getting creativity moving is not really a choice, even if you’re working and completing client work. Ultimately, as a photographer you will want the work you do to feel like an extension of you, and there’s nothing like one’s own idea.

  53. Mark Fa'amaoni

    Kia kaha bro. Rock on. 🙂

    Now get the fck back to work. 🙂

  54. Cathie Heart

    Thank you Zack for your honesty, that life has sucked, still kinda sucks but that you’re working your way through it. I’ve had weeks like this and its good to know I am not alone, that we are not alone. I’m shooting far more for me now that I ever have since becoming semi pro and I’m enjoy it all again. Have fun and I’ll be here when ever your ready to see your next work. Cheers.

  55. JW

    Welcome Back, Man!, Now – Get the F*ck to Work!

  56. Bill Blue

    some of the realest shit I’ve ever read.

  57. Jose Rosado

    Zack—thank you for always being open + transparent about your struggles with depression and your art.

    I’d love to chat more about having you write some pieces for blog to help raise awareness for mental health issues: www[dot]creativesagainstdepression[dot]com

    Can’t wait to see you get back into the swing of things!

  58. Jaime Pichardo

    It is good to “hear” from you again Zack. What you contribute to the world has tremendous value. You are an inspiration and an online mentor for many of us.

    While I don’t know the nature and condition of your current circumstances. I can only say: This too shall pass. Stay focus on the good things, and keep-pushing-forward, keep–pushing–forward. Life is beautiful but also short, so every day deserves to be lived with joy and passion.

  59. Jessica Mironov

    Dude, Zach you’re awesome! But I don’t care if I ever hear you say a word about gear again. I think we all know that the true things you have to say, the cut-through-the-crap magical, life-changing things, have nothing to do with gear. So I’m always excited to see you post about the important things, rather than see another (well-written) camera review. Other people can write those. They have almost nothing to do with photography anyway.

    • Jessica Mironov

      Ah, oops. I dictated that. Clearly it should be Zack, not Zach. I do know how you spell your name.

  60. Bayer

    I’ve battled this shit. I’m glad you got people to help, a lot of people don’t.

    The only way to get out of this shit is to drag your ass out of it.

    I notice you didn’t mention Meghan. Don’t know if you guys are together or not, it’s not my business. I can’t only say that depression is hard on our partners. Most don’t understand it and make it about them. Theynget angry, confused, frustrated.

    You made the first step. It’s like alcoholics say: one day at a time.

  61. Chris

    Good for you. Enjoy!

  62. Julie

    Fuck yeah, I love this! So glad you’re getting out there and doing stuff just for you. Way to go! Love all this work. Keep it up and thanks for sharing with us!

  63. David J. Sherwood

    Zach I respect you absolutely but I also think influence is absolutely necessary.

    I think everyone is influenced subconsciously every day. But we’re also overtly influenced with a massive slap around the face!

    I don’t sit around waiting to be influenced but you have influenced me, both in this blog (with Bowie) and historically. If you sit and wait for anything, influence included, it’ll never happen. Attack the day and take what you want from it and influence will find you.

  64. Rex M Gigout

    Zack, It is very good to see proof of life! Thanks for the Chuck Close quote, and the David Bowie video clip. I cannot seem to compose anything meaningful at the moment. Just know that I care.

    Be safe and well!

    Rex Michael Gigout

  65. Robert Pugh

    Been there Zack, just keep looking forward Chin up fella and enjoy it.

    Your an inspiration to more people you know about in this world.

    Sometimes we just need time away!

  66. Stephen

    Maybe overstepping the boundary….Maybe I am completely wrong. Might well be! …writing this stuff from the other side of the world. So delete according to taste.
    But to me it seems you are one of these amazing creative spirits who suffer from manic depression.
    Serious condition….remember Robin Williams.
    There is medication to iron out the extremes. On or two chemicals out of balance in the brain and life can become hell.

    Take care maestro.

  67. Shaun Robert Clancy

    It’s always nice to see a post from you, Zack. Very right about going out of your comfort zone, and I feel this is true throughout all facets of our lives. When I was in the pits, changing my diet up really helped (also forcing myself to sleep at a decent hour did wonders). I don’t and won’t preach, but perhaps think about changing up your meals? I can only speak from personal experience, but I can say incorporating plant-based meals into my life did more good than any pill could ever come close to. I’ll stop now, having successfully trespassed into “preachy” territory. At any rate, good luck, man! I love your work and you have lots of people rooting for you. Peace.

  68. Neil

    Thanks for sharing your feelings, it’s a brave expression but ultimately makes you the stronger one.
    I’ve never seen/heard the Bowie philosophy before but he’s right on the money.
    I live a mile from Bowies birthplace of Brixton in London.
    You may or may not remember me (Coldplay manager’s number)?
    Being a photographer is a lonesome life, one often feels “what’s the point” everyone is a photographer now. I’ve been working in this world for over 30 years and have been all over it with my cameras. It’s been fun but lately it’s not sustained me. When i started I worked for real picture editors, folk who new the image back to front, knew what they wanted. Sadly now I work for people who wouldn’t know Ansel adams from Diane Arbus, Jeff wall to Alec Soth.I’m working for folk who don’t know RAW from jpeg, flat from contrast. it’s disabling
    and sucks all the desire from within. One needs to pursue ones own goals and nourish the soul of the artist. Winston Churchill called it “Black Dog” the depressive negative state of mind. I’m still shooting for philistines but am now embarking on my own ventures with my RZ67 and rolls of FP4. I decided after watching this heartbreaking video that I should use my craft to help others less fortunate, it has shamed me into appreciating what i have and how bloody lucky so many of us are. After all, you’re a long time dead.

  69. Chris Slasor

    Yes! So glad to see you are posting again Zack. So much of what you say rings true with me. In so many ways in my own life I need to get my feet barely touching the bottom!

    Can’t wait to see what what you do. All the best and hope to see more regular posts from you again 🙂


  70. David Taranza

    Hey, Zack!
    I am glad to hear from you after that long time. Keep my fingers crossed for you.
    Welcome back! To signal!

  71. Lawrence+

    Thanks for the post, Zack. I needed that post. Badly.
    Prayers for you against the funk as well.

  72. Ellen

    It’s so good to hear from you again. I hope you keep posting and working and challenging the demons inside; they lie to you all the time. I can truly relate. In 1983, with the exception of my kids, I lost everything I had and almost tumbled over the edge. But inside me, there was this tiny voice that wouldn’t go away. It kept telling me that there was so much more to life, just waiting to be discovered. Remember, that through chaos and turmoil great things emerge. Your soul is stronger and deeper than you can imagine. Have faith, have hope and please, never give up. I believe in you and so do all the many, many people who responded so kindly to your post. Your new work is amazing.

  73. Chris Perkins

    I am so pleased you have made it through the deep black pit known as “Depression” Zack, been there and done that, myself a few years ago.

    I found your blog when I bought my X-T1 in January last year and it was and is, one of the most informative, entertaining and bullshit free photography zones on the web.

  74. Thomas

    You speak the words for many of us. Thank you.

    In the age of the Digital Pimp, many have become no more than a whore sleeping with every app that walks in the door just to please our electronic masters…

    I have discarded many of these electronic demons recently and have discovered that less is more..more time for living instead of only existing.

  75. Rachel

    Zack, thank you so much for your honesty. Artists have to be honest, that’s the magic. And sometimes it’s hard to be honest when you are working for someone else or trying to fit in a box even if it’s a box you built for yourself. I’ve also been crawling up the walls of my self-made box lately and you are an inspiration.

    Keep doing you, yo.

    In solidarity,

  76. Alexander Chaney

    Happy to hear you’re doing better Zack! I check your blog and Instagram constantly to see what you’re up to. So many of us here look up to you and can’t wait to see the work you put out by just simply doing you. best of luck always

  77. Colin Nicholls

    Getting inspiration is always a challenge, thanks for the post, little moments like this keep the ball rolling.


  78. Nick Adamson


    This is about exactly what I needed to read right now, thanks Mr. A.

  79. Jason

    Glad to hear you have decided to jump back in… I can totally relate to what you have been experiencing. Depression is the ultimate killer of ambition… and the only way to defeat it is to move without ambition… to simply do SOMETHING… doesn’t really matter what. Do that and you can break the grip of that black cloud on your soul. Good luck on your journey… you are not alone. (however much it may feel like it) (also… working from pretty much the same place right now… my statement about working without ambition is my advice to my own self. Did 2 shoots last month… first ones in ages)

  80. Phil

    There is a lot of bullshit around the world of photography, with everyone trying to project an image of themselves as being sought-after, talented and successful. I’m glad that you are a real person as well as a great photographer.

  81. Orlando Agostinho

    Hi Zack

    I am very glad to hear you again. Welcome back!!!.

    I like photography and I have been learning so much from you and your work.

    I am not a professional… I like photography as a hobby. It help me out to relax and to get a new perspective from live and the world.

    In that process I found you and your work…It help me out not only to improve my photography but also to improve myself. I am computer engineer, living in Lisbon. At the time when I found you on the internet I had troubles with my work at the office. Your experience….as a photographer and as human being, help me out to find new ways to resolve my shit…and get my life and work back to the light again. BIG Thanks. Really

    In that way, please, please,… never give up!!!!!…you are so a talent artist and unique human being. I mean it!!!!

    Just Keep Going! And…thanks for sharing your thoughts, doubts and motivation with us.

    Orlando Agostinho
    Lisbon, Portugal.

    P.S: Please say something if you would visit Lisbon, Portugal.